What’s Your G-O-D?

I have been extremely aware lately, of this need for us to connect to something bigger than ourselves and what meets the eye. Whether you call it God, Divine Energy, Expanded Self, Higher Self, Higher Power, The Universe, The Cosmos, it doesn’t really matter. The truth is, we all reach a point where we think…I just can’t do this alone, I need help. What we tend to do is scramble around looking for people and using substances that do not have the power to help us, and eventually we grow tired, bitter, afraid, and defeated by our “lack of success.”  As a result we begin to feel unsafe, uninspired, and disconnected from everyone and everything. Some may even feel a deep sense of loneliness and abandonment.  However, no one has abandoned us but ourselves. We are only alone, because we refuse to seek real connection.

Why do we make it so hard on ourselves when the help we long for is only a prayer, a letter, or a conversation away?

There comes a point in my work with my coaching clients, when I know I have to begin talking about this subject. This can be such a tricky topic because up till now, there have been so many different beliefs, and people have literally killed and died to defend their beliefs.

However, true healing cannot happen until we accept Divine Guidance into our hearts and into our lives. Lately, my clients are arriving at the next phase of their healing and it is beautiful to watch them explore this idea of creating a God of their own understanding and deepening that relationship.

Whatever your beliefs are, I am not trying to disagree or change them. I think anyone who has a strong connection to a God of their own understanding, has an unlimited resource that those who do not have this connection are cut off from. Unfortunately, until we develop this deep, internal relationship, with a power greater than ourselves, we will remain disconnected from its support, love, and guidance. That said, it’s important to note, the Divine will never cut us off, but we cut ourselves off by refusing to surrender and to seek its help.

For me, I was always wanting so badly to believe there was some cosmic power that heard my prayers, who was watching out for me, and who I could rely on to save me. As much as I longed to believe this, I always had many doubts about whether or not it was really something worth having faith in. What if I believed and it let me down? What if I found out I was wrong and God either didn’t exist or somehow forgot about me?

What has helped me, and what I invite my clients to do as well, is to write out a description of what their perfect God would be like. I tell them to get as descriptive and detailed as they want.

My God loves me no matter what, listens to me whenever I seek its listening, lets me sware and get angry at it if I need to, sings me lullabies and keeps me company when I can’t fall asleep at night, speaks to me in words and ways that I can understand, grants me the courage I need to carry out my highest passions and purpose, and reminds me that I must always do my part. My God is gentle, kind, but has taught me that it only helps those who help themselves.

If I do my part, which is staying open, willing, and humble, and I ask for help, then I am granted the strength, power, energy, and resources I need to accomplish my soul’s mission in this life.

My God teaches me about love, intimacy, freedom, compassion, and grants me more and more awareness around who and what I really am.

What I am to my God is just as important as what it is to me. For my God I am a humble servant. I always show committment and willingness to heal, open my heart even more, and to do what I can to make a positive impact on the lives of others. For my God I am a friend, a lover, a child, and a messenger. This brings great pleasure and honor to my life.

What does your God do for you? What do you need from it? Perhaps you are angry or disappointed. Can you allow yourself to voice that to it, and ask for help?

What are you doing for your God? Are you expecting answers and results but unwilling to show your devotion, love, humility, surrender, and gratitude? Are you criticizing it for the very things you are not doing? Are you willing to let go of your little plans to receive the gifts it has for you? Can you be its vessel? Do you want to be?

I sometimes write a letter, hit my knees and say a prayer, or have an actual conversation. Many times I have said or written things like, “God, I am really upset. I feel so angry and frustrated. I want so badly to believe you are there, listening, responding, and taking care of me. I want so badly to know at my innermost awareness, that you exist and that I exist far beyond what I can see, but I am growing weary. I am forgetting the truth I think, and I am doubting whether or not you really are the truth. I am having a crisis of faith. Today it just feels like everything sucks and I am resentful at you for not giving me better circumstances. I am willing to see this differently, so if you are there, please grant me a new perception. Please help me. I will listen and I will follow, but you must show up and guide me. I cannot do this by myself, and I am nothing without you. Therefore, please show me that I am not nothing and give me a sign so clear that I cannot deny it. Please deliver it in a way that I am able to understand and accept into my experience. Thank you, I love you, Amen.”

Most of the time, by the end of that letter or conversation/prayer, I am already in a different state, and all of a sudden I begin to feel a presence inside of me and all around me. If I weren’t willing, I may miss this presence, but I stay open and willing to feel everything after I ask for help. Why ask for help if you aren’t going to accept help when it arrives? I stay open and willing to see everything after I ask to be shown a sign. Therefore, I begin to get bits of information, signs, insights, synchronicities, and an overall greater sense of calm, peace, safety, love, and inspiration.

This is a powerful process, to create a God of your own understanding and then to remember to turn to it every time you need help. It’s so simple, yet so many of us don’t think to do it. I am curious about how it may affect us as a collective consciousness, and as a world if we all did this on a daily basis. Why don’t we start by applying in our own lives first.

The time is NOW. We are being called to rise to our highest form of human existence. This BIG Shift I have been writing about lately, is reminding us that we are Spiritual beings having a human experience, not the other way around. We have an invitation to awaken into a new way of thinking, being, and living. Are you coming or not?

Let me know what’s going on for you. You can leave me comments here, or email me at erinlanahanmethod@gmail.com

I love you,

Erin

Ah…Relationships: When Is It Time To Call It Quits For Good?

 

Hey mates! Ha ha…I had to give you a little Aussie-ism as I am hearing them all long day these days:) Today is day 5 of the 21  days of blogging to transformation I have been talking about. Boy are things speeding up and life gets more interesting every day. How are things going for you? Are you doing the process I suggested?

I have recently had someone re-emerge in my life. He kind of does this. He appears, disappears, appears, and disappears. For a long time this relationship was a GOLD MINE for me because it really brought up all my stuff around fear of intimacy, lack of power, lack of self-worth and self-respect, lack of boundaries, and lack of values that align with integrity. The last time I saw this person was almost a year ago and now he’s emailing me about visiting. What do I say???

I have been meditating on this one for a couple of days now, and the message I keep getting is to let him go. I keep hearing this higher-than-self voice gently saying, “Erin, tell him where you’re at, and accept that it is time to let him go. You have learned all you can learn, and healed all you can heal from this relationship.”

The truth is, I really am a different person than I was when this guy came into my life. I believe we both played a very special, very important role in each other’s lives, but I think there really does come a point in time when we have to choose something different for ourselves. The temptation is to say, “Yeah, come visit and let’s have some serious fun!” However, from past experiences, I know where that will and WON’T get me. It’s not a matter of just not taking things so seriously and just having some fun, because believe me I have tried that with this person.

Sometimes, it’s just time to team up with integrity, to put all our money on something better, and to place the bet. Either way it’s a risk, but at least when we try something different, we have a chance of getting a better result. Otherwise , we will just keep getting the same results over and over. I don’t know what I want from this relationship. I used to think I wanted committment, or to at least explore what it would be like to be together, in monogamy. Now, I can’t say I feel that way about him anymore, so I have to wonder…what kind of room does that give us? Friends? What kinds of ”friends” would we really be? I’m not certain he meets my friendship standards to be honest.

Number one priority in, or out of relationships, is to love yourself. Know your boundaries, your values, and what you are worth and NEVER compromise that. TRUST that when you align with your highest feelings and values, things will turn out for the best. My mother always said, “You can’t do the wrong thing with the right guy.” (Or girl,  guys:) I believe the same goes for friends. If we are authentic, honest, and vulnerable, the right people will remain standing in our lives, and the rest will fall away.

We must live in integrity, and let the right person drop into that space. If he or she isn’t dropping into your space and rising to the event to be with you…it’s time to graciously say “Thank you, I love you, I wish you all the best, but I must clear my space for someone better for me.”

Today was a very cool day for me. I have been making up super creative workout using trees, logs, hills, steps, and railings, and getting amazing workouts as a result. I am finding such freedom in not NEEDING a gym to get a workout in. I am realizing I do not NEED nearly as much as I once thought. I am discovering that freedom IS when you can feel happy, joyous, and free, wherever you are, under any and all circumstances, no matter who you are or are NOT with. I am finding true freedom, and for that I give thanks.

Please drop me a line or email me at erinlanahanmethod@gmail.com to share what you are going through. Let me support you however I can as we all grow through this shift together!

Love Always,

Erin

Preparing For A Big Shift Brings Up BIG Sh*t

Hey guys. It is a bit after midnight here, so I am going to try to write a short blog so I can do my meditation and get into bed:)

As I have been talking about in the last few posts, there is a big shift happening in the collective consciousness on October 28th. This is a beautiful thing to be excited about, not anything to fear at all!

Have you been feeling things at a much more intense level lately and wondering what the heck is going on with you? Are you coming face to face with your fears, your old stories and patterns, and low vibrational habits that no longer serve you? Perhaps you are finding that there are certain relationships in your life that are totally triggering you, and you are having to look at yourself in a way that feels very uncomfortable. 

As we all prepare for a big shift (because whether we are conscious of it or not, our bodies ARE aware of it), then our BIG sh*t starts to get called up and kicked up. This is again, a good sign! Although it can feel really yucky and uncomfortable, we are actually purging things like our old ideas, lack and limitation, fears around intimacy, our beliefs around money, etc. Literally, and many of us ARE aware of this, we are being stretched and pushed to go back to the root of certain feelings and fears, so that we can make a different choice about what it means and therefore no longer have our lives be run by them.

This is the shift in consciousness that is currently happening. Why? Because what we have been doing, the beliefs we’ve had, and the way our structures were built (within us and without), are not working anymore. Therefore, the walls must come down. Life, structure, and beliefs, as we have formerly known them, are changing.

I don’t know about you, but I am getting super confronted DAILY, by my beliefs about love, faith, and what is possible for me. I am being put into situations, for example not having a car right now, that are forcing me to be vulnerable, face my fears about loosing freedom, and to find a deeper sense of self and a stronger ability to trust that I AM being taken care of. I get so afraid that I will not have what I want when I want it.

I am dependent on others for rides temporarily, and so I am at the mercy of their schedules. This throws me into a freak out mode, and I all of a sudden start wanting to go places just because I feel like I can’t. Then I ask myself  ”Erin, if you had a car right now, would you really want to go to the post office?” The answer is usually “No.” So that tells me that it’s not about wanting to go somewhere, it’s about me needing to process through my deep inner fears around loosing my freedom, and I am much better off going to my room to get sttill and give my self time to BE with my feelings, then I am to go to the post office. In fact, many of us run from our feelings, and I literally am seeing myself try, but have manifested a situation where I can not run away any more. I HAVE to BE with my feelings because there is no way for me to go anywere else!

I have always wanted to experience true freedom, true abundance, true joy and peace. Well, this is my opportunity. As we work through our ideas about what freedom, joy, abundance, and love really mean, we discover that they are things only attainable from the inside out.

I am finding my freedom, learning about abundance, and finally surrounded by people and circumstances that call me to rise up and to become an even better human being. Tonight, I am grateful. I am grateful for this long day, for the run and swim at the beach with my friend who dragged me there when I didn’t want to go, and grateful for the Hot Springs where my roommates and I went to unwind, decompress, and talk about our fears and troubles we are having in our relationships with one another. I am learning about true trust, intimacy, unconditional love, and seeing that everything I have ever wanted is unfolding right now. All I have to do is slow down so I can see it and enjoy every minute of it.

What has been coming up for you lately? Please share with me what you are working through. You can leave me a message here or email me at erinlanahanmethod@gmail.com.

Love to you,

Erin

Prepare For Transformation- 21 Days Of Blogging

 

 

 

Hey everyone. I am writing this on my blog, today, because today marks a very special time on the planet. On October 28th, we will experience a big shift in the collective consciousness, and today, October 8th, 2011, is day ONE of the 21 days leading up to this special transformation. I will be writing a little something reflective EVERY day, starting now, for 21 days. I hope you will join me here, and in your own personal journey. You too can commit to reading something inspirational, journaling, and giving thanks on a daily basis, for the next 21 days, to prepare your minds, bodies, and spirits for transformation :-) If you want to go deeper however, I have written out a 21 day program at the end of this post for you!

I am currently living on 72 acres of National Trust Land in Australia. I have just moved from Sydney, to The Mornington Peninsula, to be a part of a project I feel inspired to participate in. It always blows my mind the way we can end up in places, doing things, that nothing BUT a power greater than us could’ve possibly planned for us. I know I most certainly couldn’t have planned my circumstances as they are to date. Just a few short months ago, I had NO IDEA I would be right here, right now.

I just arrived here at the Hummingbrid Eco Retreat Centre, where I will be a workshop facilitator and the Health and Communications Manager. I figure it’s the perfect time to get up on my blog DAILY, to record my experiences as they unfold here, and to do whatever I can to help prepare myself, and you, for this amazing transformation on October 28th.

Lets face it, we have all heard of these so-called BIG days, such as “the millenium”, “twenty-twelve,” etc, and have allowed ourselves to get all hyped up, only to see nothing change. However, more often than not, change is not something we can see, at least not at first.

Change is something that starts within us, and as we change on the inside, the world around us will mirror such shifts.

October 28th will bring about greater awareness, an awakening of sorts, and many of us will begin to experience life in a very different way. As these shifts occur within us, we will begin to notice more peace, more joy, more compassion, and a greater understanding of how we are all connected. As a result, we will acquire an intuitive sense about why we should really do everything we can to create love not war, and therefore use our time and energy to support healing rather than contributing to suffering. As the wars within us come to an end, so too will the wars in the world follow suit.

If you would like to join me on this 21 day challenge, here is a basic program you can follow. Don’t worry if you cannot start today (as I do realize I am in Australia and many other countries are heading to bed right now). Also, don’t worry about being perfect. This is about progress…not perfection. Just start as soon as you can. Remember, this is not something to feel you have to do, but instead something you get to do if you choose to :)

From October 8-28th:

Morning (best to this before breakfast, best around 6am):

GRATITUDE

Express Gratitude to

1) Ancestors

2) Parents

3) Spouse

4) Brothers and Sisters

5) Children

6) Friends

7) God or a Higher Power of your own understanding

Intent: Set an intention for the day. You can now pray or ask the Universe for healing  in the areas of yourself where you feel fear and disconnected from nature and others. Ask for awakening, and to experience true Oneness and a sense of inner peace, love, and joy.

Express thanks and gratitude to God, or the Universe, or the cosmos, or to Mother Nature. In other words, give gratitude to a Higher Power of your own understanding.

Afternoon (Best at noon)

Good Intention Meditation:

1) Close your eyes, and get quiet and still. Think of 10 people to send love and light to. Really feel this love and light in your body, and imagine it filling up your heart. Then send this love and light from your heart to 10 different people, animals, or places. You can choose as many people, places, or things as you want to send this to, as long as you send to at least 10.

2) Put your left hand on your heart, right hand on your belly. Send love and light to yourself, into your very own body. Really feel yourself receiving this self-love from your very own hands.

3) Give thanks to yourself, to your loved ones, and to a higher power of your own understanding. Give yourself a big hug. Seriously.

Evening (Before or After dinner, best at 6pm)

CONTEMPLATION

Contemplate the following:

1) If you do not accept yourself, either your body, physical appearance, or any of the quality in you, become aware of that and accept yourself.

2) The incidents where you got hurt by somebody. Be with that pain and forgive them.

3) Contemplate the incidents where you hurt others. Be with those feelings and responsibility, and seek forgiveness from them through silence. (You can imagine a conversation with them if it helps.)

4) Pray to a higher power of your own understanding to heal all your pains and then put your left hand on your heart and your right hand on top of your left hand, and feel yourself being made whole again. Feel the healing happening. Focus on what love feels like inside of you.

5) Pray for your friends and family members.

6) Express Gratitude to your Higher Power.

General Things To follow on these 21 days as we prepare for transformation:

1) Have Good Thoughts. Think good things about the planet and about others. Pray for their wellness. If you get any negative thoughts, just become aware of it.

2) Speak Good Words. Speak nice auspicious, kind words. Avoid using words or language that is hurtful to others. This will bring about good Karma for you:)

3) Do Good Deeds. Try to help others. Be of service in any way you can. Even the smallest of helpfulness to someone or something else, makes a very LARGE difference. Avoid doing things that will hurt others. 

Ok…see you here tomorrow!

Love and Light,

Erin xoxo

Expanding Your Light: How Feeling Uncomfortable Can Be A Good Thing

Hey everyone. I have so much to share with you! As you know, I have been getting my feet planted on the ground here in Sydney, Australia. I believe I have been pretty open with you about my journey thus far, and boy do I have more to fill you in on :+)

Do you know the feeling you get when starting a new fitness or health program, and how uncomfortable it can be in the beginning? Well, that is the way everything feels when it is completely new to us and foreign to our bodies.

I knew before I ever left the States what an impact this move would have on me physically, emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. In order to get to the good stuff however, I have to be willing to go through some of the challenging and uncomforatble stuff first.

It is common to experience a deep sense of resistance around certain actions and choices, when we realize they may create chaos and discomfort for a while. Unfortunately, it is this sense of resistance that can tend to keep us from creating any movement, or from fully embracing the very changes and decisions that have the power to bring about transformation in our lives. 

While I knew moving was going to be a serious ride, with many ups and downs, and although many fears came with that knowing, what was even stronger for me was my belief in all that I would gain and benefit as a soul , a spirit, a person, a friend, a lover, a writer, a coach, a trainer, a sister, a daughter, and more.

This is the same exact thing I tell my clients when they struggle with staying motivated. If we focus on the things that feel scary or uncomfortable, we won’t get very far will we? Stepping into our highest selves, and living our best life, requires more than that from us. We must remain focused on the feelings we want to experience in our lives, such as freedom, creativity, exploration, feeling fully expressed, and experiencing oneness, authenticity, and true connection. These are the feelings, that if we focus on them, will carry us through all of our fears and doubts. As we move toward what we want, it is common to confront lots of discomfort. Feeling uncomfortable is not a bad thing. Feeling uncomforatble can mean a few things, such as:

  • You are no longer in alignment and it is time to make the necessary changes to get your life and yourself back into alignment with your highest self and purpose.

 

  • You are stepping into the unknown and exploring new territory. This means you are growing, evolving, and expanding

 

  • You are not accepting where you currently are, and therefore are being called to explore a deeper sense of acceptance in your life, such as acceptance of yourself, of your loved ones, and of what is currently showing up inside of you and all around you. You may even want to explore what it’s like to accept that life isn’t suppose to look like anything. It just is what it is, for each of us.

I have just recently been hired to help run a Heath and Well-Being retreat centre in The Mornington Peninsula, just outside of Melbourne,  in Victoria, Australia. Yep, I am on the move again. I was just down that way last week for about 5 days, for the grand opening, to explore the offer they made and the space they have created there, and to really see if it felt like an authentic decision and something that would be good for both them and me. At this point in my growth, it does feel good, and I have decided to go have a new experience and see what unfolds from it.

Being a part of running the retreat centre will definitely require me to step outside many of my comfort zones. There will be things I love to do and many things I may feel resistance around, but all in all, I will gain a lot of new insight, awareness, and absorb so much new information that can only help.

Over the weekend there was a workshop held there, called Natural Order Movement Patterns. This type of workout has to do with connecting back to our roots and moving the body like it was designed to move. We did all kinds of exercises with rocks, logs, and different types of climbing and crawling exercises just using our body weight, but moving in ways we just rarely, or do not ever, move anymore. It has totally opened me up in many ways about how to improve upon the coaching and fitness programs I currently use for myself and my clients, and I feel inspired.

Inspired. This is a word I love. This word has the power to change minds, to shift people’s actions, and to change the world. Whenever I am walking through something new and uncomfortable, difficult, or scary, I always seek the inspiration I can find within the experience. This is sometimes the ONLY way to get through things.

If we are willing to be inspired and committed to seeking such inspiration out of every situation we are put in, we will have a much better chance of experiencing more joy and genuine happiness in all that we do.

We are made to believe that life isn’t easy, being healthy is hard or boring, healthy food tastes gross, it’s best to conform, we can’t have what we want, and that to achieve anything, we must work overtime to get it, and perhaps even sacrifice our value system. This is just NOT TRUE. This should however, make us aware that we are being called to shift our perceptions and to begin to question what we have been taught. For so long there has been a disconnect between what we feel inside, and what we are told is happening, and thus many of us suffer from inner conflict.

As we begin to connect to the truth within ourselves, it gives us a sense of something bigger, a greater plan unfolding, and amongst all that feels impossible, we can remain anchored in our belief that there is a purpose and a reason for everything.

As I crawled through the grass last weekend, carried logs, jumped up onto tree stumps, and threw rocks, I began to remember even more deeply that I am ONE with nature, ONE with you, and ONE with all that is. I felt inside of me that although I sometimes have NO IDEA where life is taking me, that I am being guided, and directed, and all I have to do is keep believing in what I feel in my heart. There is so much to learn by being in nature.

I am exactly where I am supposed to be. You are exactly where you are supposed to be. Everything is happening as it should. As we give ourselves permission to just be where we are, this acceptance becomes the very instigator of transformation. This is the power we all have inside of us. To know and not know all at the same time is O.K. If we can allow what we know to exist, even though we may not understand it enough to put it into words, it can be the very inspiration we need to keep us seeking, exploring, and trying new things, even when we are not sure where life is taking us, or how things will ever come together.

When I left Los Angeles just 8 weeks ago, I couldn’t have known that I would be moving to the Mornington Peninsula to run a Health and Well-Being Retreat Centre so soon after arriving in Sydney. Some things we just can’t know ahead of time. That is why we are much better off to live from the place of how we want our lives to feel, and stay focused on that. From that place we will manifest opportunities and relationships that support everything we have intended to create.

It is important to remember that somewhere deep inside, each of us KNOWS our “natural movement pattern.” It is innate, something we feel because it is our natural and most authentic rhythm and instinct. 

This move to Australia has made clear to me the importance of getting anchored in our own beliefs about who we are and what feels right for us personally. If we are not anchored in our truth, it can be so easy to conform. Just like so many people are hitting the gym every day and doing workouts prescribed by someone else, that actually move them away from their intuition and their bodies natural ways of movement, so too do our social settings tend to move us away from who we are and what we believe is possible for our lives.

Whether we are moving countries, moving towns, changing jobs, moving in and out of relationships, moving our bodies, or just shifting our perception, things can feel scary, lonely, challenging, impossible, and as if we may never make it. I invite you however, to notice how those same things also feel exciting, freeing, expressive, expansive, creative, authentic, and empowering.

We have the power to choose how we use our attention as we move through the things we face in life. When you get uncomfortable, what do you choose to focus on? Do you see what’s impossible or what’s possible? Do you see yourself as weak or as powerful? Do you feel compassion for yourself and your efforts or do you beat yourself up with harsh judgments? Do you wallow in self-pity, or do you get out of yourself and go help someone else?

You have the power to be yourself and to do whatever you want.

Please share your experiences, questions, and comments with me here. I believe that we are all here to learn from each other, so I value what you have to say. In fact, I LOVE hearing from you!

Lots of Love,

Erin

Turn Your Fears Into The Strength That Paints Your Life

 

I have pondered what I was going to write about, as my first post from Sydney, Australia, since the day I arrived. As a writer, I think it’s natural to find a message in just about everything that happens in life, and to then get caught up in delivering it perfectly. It is however, a beautiful thing, and such a gift when we learn to do that for ourselves. That is,  to find a message, a lesson, strength, insight, awareness, and a new tool for living, in all the little challenges we face each day.

So much has been happening on this journey, in such a small amount of time, I kept thinking, “where do I begin” and “how can I possibly express and share my experiences with my readers in the most effective way.” Well, the answer I came up with was….”JUST BEGIN.” Afterall, this is only one article, and one of many opportunities to write and share my thoughts and experiences with you:)

One teaching I have received as I have walked my path in life, is that of living life authentically. This word is one we tend to hear about often, but do you ever stop and really explore it, and what it means for you, for your life, and for your unique expression?

Many years ago, when I began working with my Life Coach, I was struggling with my career path. I have always had a love-hate relationships with Personal Training, because it constantly challenges me to find ways to work in my industry that feel supportive of my deepest intentions and beliefs about what Fitness really means to me and how it can play a role in healing people’s Spirits and lives. Tracy said to me “Erin, if you could do this job in a way that was unique to your expression of life and fitness and what you believe about its healing powers, how would that look for you? How might that change the way you design people’s workouts and how you speak to them about their own wellness and the choices that they make?”

When Tracy asked me these questions, I felt fear, but at the same time, liberation. I had never thought about it this way. I had never considered the option of really creating my own expression of health, wellness, fitness, and life skills. This was how my journey really began to evolve and as a result, I got to discover more and more of my authentic self and how that plays a role in the world.

When I chose to make this move to Sydney, Australia, after building a life in Los Angeles, California for the last 7  years, I knew it would come baring many challenges, and it would require more strength and courage from me than I was currently accessing. This is exactly what attracted me to making this move, for as much as I feared, what I wanted was a much greater pull than my fears. I wanted to experience true transformation, in a way I had not previously been ready for. The last seven years of my life were preparing me for this move, and I know that in my bones. I did not, and still don’t, know exactly how this will all unfold. However, I know that when we remain committed to our process and to the journey, and stay with it no matter what fears try to yank us off the path, that there is pure goodness waiting on the other side for us. Well…I want that pure expression of goodness as me and my life, so here I am.

I believe we all crave expansions, expression, to have a voice, to feel heard, to feel loved and accepted, and to know we are validated. Well, my attempts at achieving all of these things taught me, that I cannot go anywhere else to receive these gifts, but inside of myself. I now understand that challenges, change, confronting fears, and stepping into new places and roles that require new levels of strength and courage, are all avenues for us to access our inner selves, and that ultimately lead us to a place of more self-love and compassion, forgiveness, healing, self-respect, self-esteem, and the kind of  inner joy that is unwavering regardless of external circumstances.  THIS is why I do things like move to Sydney, Australia to embrace a completely different and new experience.

It is different here in ways I did not expect, and not so different in the ways I did expect. None of this is good or bad. It just is what it is. It’s funny how just not even knowing how to cross the street anymore, can really make you feel like a newborn baby, feeling everything for the first time. It can send you into a sense of  HOLY SH** or a sense of AWE, but we always get the choice.

Literally I have to check the parked cars, before crossing streets on my morning runs, so I know which way to look for on-coming traffic. I also keep finding myself on the wrong side of the running path, as everyone here does everything on the opposite side of things as Americans. I know I will get use to it, so for now, I am really embracing the childlike energy this keeps me in, as I look to the people around me, to teach me what to do. It challenges me to look outside for guidance, whilst staying completely connected to my own inner guidance to point me in the direction of the right people to ask and places to try.

I have always owned a car. Public transportation was always fascinating to me, but not something that was readily available anywhere I lived. In L.A. it was more accessible than anywhere, but still, that city really isn’t set up well for it. Here, I have been learning to catch buses, and grocery shop without a car trunk to put it all in, and to be creative with the ways in which I get my groceries home. These things all seem so small, but they inspire such BIG change as a result.

This move has required more trust from me than I had available when I got here. So this is where I am now…learning even more about trust. I am exercising a new muscle, the one that keeps me feeling the fear and doing it anyway, willing to be uncomfortable for the sake of discovering more truth and living my life in the best possible way for me. This is the kind of workout that falls under the umbrella of my unique expression and beliefs about what fitness really means ;-)

Fitness is about living a Fit Life. It’s about stepping into uncomfortable situations that reveal our weaknesses to us, so we can make them stronger. Fitness is about nurturing our bodies, minds, and spirits in all the ways we can, by making conscious choices about what we eat, what we think, the words we use, how we treat others, and the way in which we spend our time. Fitness is a method, a way of life, and a philosophy that has the power to support expansion, connection, and to transform the world.

I will have you know, that although I have days that feel scary, and there are decisions I must make that I feel undecided about, and there is so much left in the unknown that it sometimes hurts and gives me a sick feeling in my stomach, I will not give up on myself, I will not give up on this journey, and I will not give up on you.

I invite you all to turn within, to be gentle with yourselves, to breathe deeply, to give yourselves the love and nourishment you deserve, and to allow yourselves to be vulnerable enough to reach out when you just need someone to give you directions, while at the same time staying connected to your truth.

I will be here, asking for directions and watching others cross the street so I learn how. I will be catching buses that may take me to an unknown destination, and I will be getting lost, only to find my way again. I will remain willing, courageous, and vulnerable. I will reach out for help, yet at the same time, I will be checking in with myself, and following my intuition, staying committed to walking this life as the most authentic expression of myself. I hope you are doing the same:-)

Please share your stories, or any questions and comments you may have for me, right here. I absolutely love hearing from you!

Sending you all so much love and light!

xoxo,

Erin

Some Final Words Before The Big Departure To Sydney, Australia!

The time has finally come to make the big move! I wanted to connect with all of you as I await my departure to Sydney, Australia tonight. Thank you for inspiring me, and for walking this path with me! Here some final words as I shoot my last video in America for a while! I will see you from down under next time!

Love and Light To You My Friends!

xo Erin

 

Old Flings Bring Opportunities For New Patterns!

It’s been exactly one week and three days since I arrived here in my hometown, Vero  Beach, FL. for my 3 1/2 week visit. I am here until July 26th. Then I head back to L.A., and take off to Sydney, Australia July 28th!

Each day here,  I wake up somewhere between 6 and 7 am, head out to the kitchen, and there I greet my dad and step-mom, and our little pug Winnie. We all pour some hot coffee, eat breakfast, and enjoy about an hour together before we all take off in different directions. It’s amazing.

I have been loving my bowl of raw, organic blueberries, blackberries, strawberries, and walnuts as of late. Yum!

After breakfast time I either head out for a 5 mile run, which includes  2 miles over the Barber Bridge and back, or I hit the gym. Some mornings I actually choose to take my hot coffee and sit down at my computer and begin to ponder what message I want to share with you next. I must admit…I LOVE to write ;-)

Yesterday something interesting happened. I was connected with an old fling via text. We have a bit of history, as many of us do with people from our home towns! However, timing was never on our side and ultimately I moved on.

However, yesterday he invited me to workout with him and I said yes. After we made a plan to meet up, I just got to feeling funny in my tummy. Something felt off, out of alignment, not supportive of me and the space I want to keep myself living from. I decided to meditate on it for a while, and after an hour of deep breathing and silence, I came to a conclusion.

You see, even though I knew it was most likely just a friendly workout, I wasn’t certain why I wanted to go. I wasn’t able to trust that my intentions were pure. In fact, I decided that there really was no need to see him. I didn’t want to workout, because I had planned for yesterday to be my day off so my body could rest. Therefore, if I went, it was only because I wanted to see HIM, and that equals not good for ME.

I know a bit about what’s going on in his romantic life, so he’s not exactly available. Therefore, like I said, even though it was most likely just going to be a friendly workout, something inside me just didn’t want to go, and didn’t feel like it was the right thing to do.

I have been really clear about wanting to create healthy relationships and declaring to the Universe my expectations in a man.

I finally truly believe that I deserve only the best. I deserve a man who sees me, who appreciates everything about me, and who steps up to the plate and pursues me in a respectful, romantic way. If a man is showing up in my life in any other way than this, then I am must say no thank you (Unless of course we ARE just friends, which this old fling and I really are not, and never were JUST friends).

This is what I know, based on my life experiences:

When we decide to make a different choice than we have in the past, then at that moment we shift.  

If we are conscious about the choices we have made in the past and how they have affected our lives, and we want to create something that feels better than that, then we must be conscious of the choices we make today, and choose diefferently. We must choose only that which supports our optimal health and well-being and all that we feel we deserve.

I knew that working out with an old fling, was an old pattern. He didn’t come after me, he didn’t make a huge effort, in fact I am the one that made it easy for him to invite me. In the past, I have always made things easy for others, especially men. This is because I was too afraid they wouldn’t know I cared, or that I would lose them. Well, yesterday I reminded myself that whatever is mine cannot be lost. Whatever is meant for us, will come for us. So I made a different choice. I cancelled.

It felt hard to do, but a few hours later, and today, I have actually been energized by the choice I made.

Whenever we resist temptation, and instead, align with our highest good and the good of all, we get stronger and begin to feel empowered, guided, and carried.

I just wanted to remind you of the importance of your choices. Remember that your choices are the conversation you have with the Universe. Your choices WILL manifest. If you want to create something that feels better, something that is more in alignment with you, and a life that is lived authentically and with integrity, then make choices that support that. That’s what I did yesterday, and it sure does feel good.

For the record, I have no hard feelings against this old fling of mine. In fact I send him love and wish him well. I hope all his dreams come true and that he gets everything he has ever wanted. My choice not to see him yesterday had nothing to do with him. Nope, this wasn’t about him…it was about me.

The Divine Universe gave me an opportunity to align with temptation, or to align with my soul, and I got to choose.

I chose myself. I chose to align with my soul. This is a new pattern I am creating, and something I intend to stay committed to. It is an esteemable act and creates an esteemable life, and manifests the quality of life and love I deserve.

We all get opportunities on a daily basis, to align with temptation, or to align with our highest good. Neither choice is wrong, it’s just that one will feel better than the other. One may feel good short-term, and the other may be scary in the moment, but serve your life better long-term. You get to decide which is more important to you in the moment. That’s the beauty of it.

We GET to choose. We GET to create our lives, one choice, one thought, one action, one word, at a time.

I would love to hear what’s going on in those heads, hearts, and souls of yours. Leave me your questions and comments below if you are so inclined!

Here’s to your health, wellness, and vitality!

Love and Light to you my friends,

Erin xoxoxoxo

Shifting Into Allowing Mode Back Home

This is The Barber Bridge here in Vero Beach, FL. I run this bridge almost every morning when I'm here :)

Yes, I said SHIFTING into allowing mode! It’s funny, back in L.A. we tend to get moving so fast and go-go-go all the time, that when I come back to my hometown Vero Beach, FL, it’s like I literally have to start the down shift process from ACTION  into ALLOWING.

I arrived here on Sunday, July 3rd, and the down shifting began. Now it’s Friday, and I am finally feeling myself move slower both inside and outside. For me, it helps to actually visualize a light switch. The bottom says Action and the top says Allowing. I flip the switch upward in my mind, and then ALLOW my body and mind to begin to shift gears, down and down and down, until I am kicked back and relaxed:-)

How are you spending your summer thus far? Are you stuck in action mode, or are you ALLOWING all your hard work to work for you?

I have decided that I have worked so hard, right up to the last-minute before I left Los Angeles, that this trip, for me, was going to be about practicing trust, and allowing all the work I have put in thus far, to reveal its results to me. I am only doing that which feels good to me, and trusting that results are already in process.

Australia is getting closer and closer, and even though I am anxiously and eagerly awaiting my move to another country, I have also committed myself to staying present and in this moment right now. When we remain present, we get to enjoy all the gifts that are right in front of us. My grandmother is turning 90 next week, and getting this time with her is priceless. For her birthday, we are having a huge family reunion right here in Vero Beach!

Last night my father played the guitar and my step-mom and I sang to it. These are the gifts that are here for me, as a result of working hard and being of service to others. I am feeling really calm and grateful today. How bout you?

I would love to hear from you! Big hug!

Erin

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