There are only few things that I have chosen over the years NOT to talk about in my articles and posts.
I have chosen to be pretty open in the majority of my writing, because I feel that we all depend on the ones who say what we are afraid to say or don’t know how to say, the ones who let us know that we aren’t alone or the only one feeling a certain way about something or going through a particular life situation.
When we feel isolated and alone with our secrets, SHAME gets stronger.
We are only as sick as our secrets.
That doesn’t mean we should share our secrets with the wrong people, but it does mean that seeking out a trusted guide or mentor to reveal all of ourselves to, can be deeply healing and transformational.
I see it all the time, in the work my clients do with me, and the work I do with my own Coach.
I have decided to start talking about something I have never spoken about before. It is the fact that I have struggled with some upsetting and confronting health challenges throughout my life.
When I was young, ANYTHING that threatened my health or life force in any way, was my worst nightmare. I was so darn identified by my body and health, that health challenges literally shook me to the core because they rattled the identity of myself that I currently had.
Who would LOVE ME if I was “broken?”
Generally I am a VERY healthy person, but even really healthy people have health scares and challenges that totally ROCK them. We just don’t tend to talk about it in a positive way, open to the solution.
It is no coincidence that I chose a path of yoga and life coaching, meditation, and healing as my career. I chose them as my place of purpose and contribution to the world, because my health issues guided me to them for my own healing.
In my experience, that’s what health issues do. They guide us to whatever it is our bodies want and need, they we aren’t listening to!
The deepest and hardest lesson I have had to learn, (and still working on it), is that I AM NOT MY BODY. It does not define my SOUL.
I think of my body as my partner. It’s like a marriage. For better, or for worse, till death do us part.
So I am committed to loving this body, even when it gets sick and isn’t functioning optimally.
Only that use to totally throw me off. It use to create so much hate and frustration and disgust towards myself when I got sick.
And then I learned, that sickness is partly manifested as a result of those places within me that carry hate and judgments and anger and fear.
So sickness teaches me to slow down, to listen to my body, to LOVE myself, and EVERY time, I am humbled because I thought I was loving myself already, only to realise I still carried shame and hurt and negative thoughts about myself and about the world.
Instead of getting mad at my body for not behaving like I want it to, which is what we all tend to do with our partners and with the world, I am learning how to turn inward, how to challenge that voice that wants to be angry and hurtful towards my body.
I think, if I am in a marriage with this body, how can I help to create harmony and balance. What do I TRULY need right now?
Sometimes it means letting go of external things, like toxic friendship, substances, foods, and lovers.
Other times it means clearing away toxic thoughts and beliefs.
Sometimes both.
So I guess that’s really it from me about this right now. Just want to reach out to anyone and everyone who is challenged by their health in some way, to please have compassion for you body. Have compassion for YOU. There are reasons why we shut down and get sad and angry and afraid.
AND we can resolve that too. We can heal. We can love ourselves wholeheartedly, unconditionally once again.
Let your body guide you. If you are health challenged right now, let it show you where you may not be loving yourself, where you may be the most hurtful of anyone you know towards yourself. BUT ALSO LET IT HELP TO TRAIN YOU TO CHOOSE WHAT IS GOOD AND TO FOCUS ON THAT OVER AN ABOVE WHAT HURTS OR FEELS DEFEATING.
I am generally very healthy, AND, just like ALL human beings, I am a student of this body. And sometimes this body teaches us through dis-ease, ailments, and sickness. But I choose to learn, to overcome, to heal, and to keep going, creating thriving and optimal health as a result!
I AM WHOLE. I AM HEALTHY. I AM PERFECT AND DIVINE IN EVERY WAY. DIVINE LOVE IS DOING IT’S PERFECT WORK IN ME AND THROUGH ME NOW. THIS BODY SERVES A SACRED AND DIVINE PURPOSE. LOVE WINS EVERY TIME. I AM LOVE.
AND SO IT IS…
🙂 <3
Love,
Erin
It’s been a pleasure hang’n with you! If you’d like to hang with me even more, if you’d like to go even deeper in your personal journey, and you are ready to rise above your fear so you can heal once and for all and create something bigger than ever before, then perhaps you are ready to work with me as your Personal Coach. I’d love to meet you if so. Please email me at [email protected] for more details.
